The Second in the Complete Trilogy of Rafael's and Akilah's Story
"I know this was unexpected for us, but do you ever think you're going to eventually be totally okay with this? Preferably before it's born."
"Some days I think so. Other days…"
Rafael and Akilah had it all figured out.
Graduate high school, go to college, and, for Rafael, after a year of struggling with mental health issues and recovering from sexual abuse that happened to him as a teen, trying to be better and more attentive to Akilah.
Akilah getting pregnant just before they graduated high school wasn't part of that plan.
Now, Rafael has to grapple with his mixed emotions about it.
He didn't want kids, but Akilah's keeping the baby whether he wants her to or not, and he sure as hell doesn't want to be like the dad who left him before he could really remember him. At the same time, he's terrified if he stays, he'll turn into the stepdad that abused him and his mother.
Of the two of them, Akilah's always been the strong one. Always the one who Rafael leaned on for support. But for the first time since their relationship started, she needs him to be the strong one.
Considering his history and the bad examples he's had for male role models his whole life, Rafael's not sure he can do it. And even more important than that, he's uncertain he should even try.